Saturday, April 11, 2009 . 5:22 PMYesterday I had a nice (weird) dream. :)
I found someone who loved me and I loved him as well.
I shouldn't be minding the fact that he was younger than me, should I?
Let's call him T ^^;;
I had a child whom T rescued from a fire.
But in the end, people wanted to take T away from me...
And I woke up with fear and tears TT
Anyway... that's a great dream over all...
I had my first kiss again... -.-;;
And it was... well...
Intense I guess... =.=''
Friday, April 10, 2009 . 10:22 PMIt's been a long time since I last updated...
And well, come to think of it, my last post was also somehow trashy...
I didn't know what to write because I didn't know how I should have been to the world.
Maybe it's a bit late to realize how easier and faster I could overcome unpleasant things.
But anyway, I'm feeling the need to voice out my mind again...
And maybe nobody would read this post...
But at least, I'm trying
There are things I keep wondering about
Things about myself, my family, the world that I see from my eyes
And I'm still looking for the answers
Maybe time would pass by faster while I'm looking
But isn't it supposed to be the way I am?
Because I can choose who I would become tomorrow... or three years from now on, I would be someone I want to be...
Not someone I have to be... yeap, I hope so.
I met someone from the opposite sex. And I suddenly feel weird...
It feels like fear.
It's neither that I was thinking too much, fearing too much or thinking less of myself too much.
But at the same time, I know that even when somebody tells me that I'm useless, and I'm a person of no good, I'm still proud of myself.
Proud of the fact that I have a great family.
Of the fact that I'm learning Korean all by myself.
Of the fact that I have lively and interesting dreams every night.
Of the fact that sometimes I remember something about Old European history that my classmates couldn't remember.
Even of someone tells me I'm an arrogant and ignorant person
I just can't stop seeing and knowing that in my world, I'm the one who choose to have and not have what could have been around me.
I see how my future will be. Bright and pleasant because I will refuse to see only the dark and unpleasant side of it.
Even if there isn't really God. I know that my heart is the God I should follow.
And the smile and happiness road is where I should walk.
Just one more thing to be said to whoever is reading this post:
Have a nice day ^^
Saturday, March 21, 2009 . 1:30 AMRandomness again~~
IF SOMEONE SAY "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY? Like being hit by a bullet- Baek Jiyeong~
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL? Destiny- SNSD
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY? Blue Moon- Color Pink
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE? Don't be happy- Mc the Mx (what the heck)
WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO? flower pot- loveholic
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU? First Love- Utada~
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS? Girl- Epik High (??)
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN? Don't go don't go- Brown eyes
WHAT IS 2+2? Waltz of tears
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND? Nuna very pretty- Shinee ahahah
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Promise- KCM
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY? Fallen Flowers- Epik high
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP? The One- SS501
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Crazy Woman- East of Eden OST (heck no!)
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU? Endless Rain- X-japan
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING? Sad fool- Min Kyunghoon
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL? Goodbye My Love- Sung Sikyung!
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST? One- Epik High
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS? Into the new world- SNSD
WHAT'S THE WORSE THING THAT COULD HAPPEN? Fool- Maybee
HOW WILL YOU DIE? Hankerchielf- Kim Dongwan
WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET? Kissing you- SNSD ^^;;
WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH? Amigo- SHinee
WHAT MAKES YOU CRY? Wish dayz- Juhee
WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED? U- Suju~
WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST? Love love love- Epik High
DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU? One love- Davichi~
IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE? Snow flower- Yuki Nakamura
WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW? Walking down the memory lane- Nell
HOW WILL YOU BECOME IN THE NEXT 3 YEARS? red bean- Lee Boram ^^;
HOW YOUR IDEAL LOVER SEE YOU? you're like oxygen- Shinee!
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO RIGHT NOW? After love- FT island
Thursday, March 12, 2009 . 8:56 PMDandelion in the rain...
Soaked white hair...
I can't fly when the tears brought me down...
By the window across the garden...
I hear a widow singing sad songs...
Her love has gone with the withered flower...
He stepped on my leaves days ago...
On a rainy day like this...
And she's been singing...
And I've been standing...
Waiting for the sun to come back...
And I will be leaving too...
Friday, March 6, 2009 . 8:43 PMDreams of a fool
(dedicated to Yun)
I once had a name, given by you
Fool... Fool... your lovely fool
I was a fool and still now am I
Because I never know a thing about love
I only know how to lean on one person
And how to let that person go when he wants to
You call me a fool because I used to tell you
My hands get cold easily
So don't let go of them and I won't let go of yours
My eyes get teary easily
So don't frown and hurt yourself, for me it's painful
My feet get me lost easily
So don't leave me behind, I will follow you
My heart gets broken easily
So don't cheat on me because I don't deserve you
I am a fool because up til now
I still think you are the finest thing in the world
And that I can never be your perfect match
The only thing I could ever do is give you all
The love I could ever feel, the good things I could give
How I wish it would make my heart as pretty as your face