Saturday, November 29, 2008 . 9:28 PM

Quiz... Long time no see, how are you doing?

Let's have some fun, shall we... I'm bored and crazy... and I miss food..

What Your Love of Twix Says About You

You are a generous and caring person. You are soft hearted. You're the type who needs a partner. You just don't feel right on your own. You are more fragile than outward appearances would suggest. You tend to be a pushover. You are very sensitive and easy to break.

You are White Chocolate

You are White Chocolate You are sweet, caring, and truly very innocent. Whether your naive ways are a bit of act or not, people like to take care of you. You are a quiet flirt, and your power is often underestimated!

You Are Lemon Meringue Pie

You're the perfect combo of sassy and sweet. You always know how to brighten someone's mood, but you're not overly sappy. In fact, you can be a bit too honest at times. And most people find that refreshing. While you're always true to yourself, you keep things light. That's how people are able to stomach your slightly bitter outlook. Those who like you have well refined tastes. You're complicated - and let's face it - a true enigma. You enjoy defying expectations, and there are many layers to your personality. There's not one easy way to define you.

You Are an Orange

You have a zest for life, especially for anything colorful, wild, or dramatic. You have a unique take on the world, and you're not afraid to be a little funky. You are a bit reserved toward people who don't know you well. You have a thick skin, which can protect you from anything that goes wrong in your life. Once someone does get to know you, they totally get and appreciate you. Your friends see you as a bright person with a refreshing take on life.

You Are a Smiley Face Cookie

You're happy go lucky. So happy, in fact, it's a little past the point of normal sanity. You usually make those around you smile ... when you're not creeping them out!

TODAY~~ BORED~~ Today... had a long talk with her...
really... somewhat regretted...
But stay cool...
Always cool... since it's in the past...
Happy happy...
A new year is coming coming soon~
Many good things will come to me because I want them and will work hard for them...
After all... myself is who I should lean on...
Because... I want to be strong enough... to be leaned on by that someone...
^^
Have a good day

Friday, November 28, 2008 . 6:22 PM

Tuesday, November 25, 2008 . 8:28 AM

Sarang An Hae (사랑 안 해)- Baek Jiyoung (백지영)
I was going to do that
I was going to go back
Yea, your coldness did have a reason

When your touch was gone
I realized that my heart had left

Because of a lingering attachment that asked "what if.."
I comforted myself
Now I am more pitiful for doing this to myself
Now I will really erase you
All the memories too

Like a fool I didn't know
I didn't know about you two
Trying to remember us--
That was all a part of my greed

Even though I promised myself,
I open my eyes every morning
and pray for you who passed by
for you not to forget me

Please, the one thing I am hoping for right now
Is for you not to speak about me so easily
Instead just say that you don't know me
You will know after time, about the value of my love

Now I don't love you
And myself saying that is the same as you
Because i can't meet anyone else
Because I can't love again
Like a fool, I don't love you
And you who is saying that, are the one I love
I hope you forget me, please erase me

The seat without me, the seat that is not me
Don't fill it with love
If we can meet again
If we can love again
It'll hurt but I love you
I will watch over you and I love you
Because I couldn't say these words...

Sunday, November 23, 2008 . 2:21 PM

Vague piece...


It rains again.
Slowly… every drop… just like the sound of footsteps walking away…

Cold wind starts to find its way through the window in front of her.
It feels like pain.
The girl looks down at the music sheets lying deadly on the table. She has played them before… the songs he wrote for her, named after every memory they had together. How romantic… she thinks and can’t help letting out a bitter smile. Raindrops throw themselves harder through the open window, leaving wet smearing marks on the paper. A sense of death brushes through her mind. "They are drops of blood…" she opened her heart to him like the windows open themselves to the rain knowing the rain wouldn’t bring any good. That person… the first person who gave her feelings… also the first person who dug a nail into her heart…
She wonders what she has been doing during the past three years. She knew her heart… she thought she knew her fate… she knew she loved him… every second… every minute… she knew how she would be with him forever… She knew everyone was against her love for him… she knew every single night he tiptoed through the front door, thinking she must have gone to bed. She knew every time he went out drinking but lied that he had some business meeting. Perhaps she knew ways too many things.
She just didn’t know one important thing …his heart…
The cold air taps violently on her back. She coughs, feeling weaker and weaker. The blood inside her throat tastes dreadfully bitter. She no longer wants to die. The reason… simply it’s because she’s no longer the foolish girl of 3 years ago…
Dragging her feet towards the kitchen, silence surrounds her as if to crush her between its heartless fingers. She can even imagine the fingers with their wedding ring that sometimes he left in the bathroom… the fingers that once caressed her face… once filled the empty spots between her fingers…
...
...
*forgotten parts*

Wednesday, November 19, 2008 . 7:41 AM

미안해... 사랑해... 안녕 히 하세요

I let you go...
I promise I will let you go this time
The last promise I make and I will keep it
I will burn all the unsent love letters I wrote
All the recordings of your laughter...
Though inside, there's a trace of tender pain
Asking...Please forget and forgive...
I hope you forgive me and soon forget about us
Because, I realize, I've done nothing good for you
If there was a God in my eyes, I would thank him
Since he let you be a part of my small world
This love... you should let our memories die
It's also okay to leave me behind with hurt
Don't look back... in your eyes would be sympathy...
No more love... right?
Goodbye I wish you happiness...
Enough to smile when thinking about me...
I won't hold grudge or hatred...
But the sins of hurting you as a friend...
I will never forgive myself...
If only I was brave enough to tell you I love you before we fell apart...
We were friends...
I can never be more than a friend to you...
Never ever... in your eyes and your heart...
Live for yourself, won't you?
Heaven...
My heaven...
I will wait for you there...
When you are too tired to think about anyone or anything else
Even though you would take me for granted...
See you... See you...
Goodbye another love...
Goodbye my laughter and memories...

Sunday, November 16, 2008 . 10:22 PM

Ah, it's my first post... what should I write here? perhaps... something typical.. presentative... hahaha
...
well, I would post one of my "song rewriting" works

THIS SONG

Original Song: This song (이노래) by 2AM

There are times I want to tell you how I feel
There are times I could only hold back my tears
There are times I tried to let you go
But my heart and soul hate me for doing so

Just let go of yesterday
Let go of the tears and pains
Your tomorrow will be my whole life
I will tell you I love you
Everyday and every night
Even though sometimes you can’t seem to hear

So I sing this song
And hope it would touch your heart
All the love I have
I hope you would feel the same way
From this point
I truly want to give you all my happiness
Because there’s nothing I need
Nothing more than to be with you always

Sorry for the things I did that broke your heart
Sorry for the nights you had to be alone
Sorry for the times my love made you feel trapped
Sorry for the words I said that made you cry

I won’t ask for forgiveness
Because words will just be words
I’ll do anything to show you how much you mean to me
All my heart will follow you
All I hear will be your name
All I want to see is your smiling face

So I sing this song
And hope it would touch your heart
All the love I have
I hope you would feel the same way
From this point
I truly want to give you all my happiness
Because there’s nothing I need
Nothing more than to be with you always

This love song may not be enough
But if you can give me and my love one more chance
I have lived my life this long for you and only you girl
I’ll keep these feelings always
Because all I ever want is your love
Because all I ever need is your love

Dedicated to Yuri.